As I move forward in life I like everyone drawn to certain things. I stray from them then upon my return I find them with a new meaning or I find a deeper meaning that I was not ready to see before. While I knew this was happening I never had one of these realizations as neatly packaged as what happened to me a few days ago.
"I had a friend was a big baseball player
Back in high school
He could throw that speedball by you
Make you look like a fool boy
Saw him the other night at this roadside bar
I was walking in, he was walking out
We went back inside sat down had a few drinks
But all he kept talking about was..."
Some of you may know and have seen that EQUIVITA is getting new carpet installed and it is a very exciting time for us. To help the work go smoothly we took on the duty of pulling the old carpet.
Now I don't know how much you know about pulling carpet but this particular carpet had been glued down to the concrete and the only way to facilitate its removal was to grab it with an aluminum handle and use brute force to pull it away from the concrete.
After a while blisters had started to form on my hands and I could feel the muscles in my back groaning in protest as pulling became harder. Even with the cold weather and the doors open I was covered in a fine sheen of sweat as each strip became harder and harder to pull. Eventually all that was left was a strip about 4 feet wide and 8 feet long and it is with that strip that our tale truly begins.
"Sometimes on a Friday I'll stop by
And have a few drinks after she put her kids to bed
Her and her husband Bobby well they split up
I guess it's two years gone by now
We just sit around talking about the old times,
She says when she feels like crying
She starts laughing thinking about..."
Underneath a portion of this carpet was a drain that was partially responsible for us getting new carpet. The drain was not really functional anymore and water would sometimes come up the drain and soak the carpet above.
We talked to J.S. Brown and Company and they sent over someone to permanently seal the drain closed. The worker walked over to the corner of the final piece and pulled. The carpet pulled away like butter and within a few seconds. In seconds This daunting piece of fabric that I was set to tackle was rolled away and discarded in a corner.
I was crestfallen. I was jealous. I was generally pissed off. Waves of emotion flowed through me. Here I had struggled and fought pulling smaller strips of carpet off and here this guy walked right up to one of the larger pieces, snatched it off the floor like it was nothing. I drew comparisons.. He is bigger than I am. He does this for a living. I could be stronger. I could have more endurance. How can this happen? When will I find the time to work out more? I lift weights, I workout up to three times a day. I do MMA I am no slouch in the lifting department and I press my limits every workout. Hell I am even in a smaller pant size than ever before. But here I am feeling frustrated at my own progress, my own limitations in a matter of seconds based upon a #^%& strip of carpet.
Then in the midst of all those emotions came a memory that was standing silently in the shallows as the storm raged.
"Think I'm going down to the well tonight
And I'm going to drink till I get my fill
And I hope when I get old I don't sit around thinking about it
But I probably will
Yeah, just sitting back trying to recapture
A little of the glory, well time slips away
And leaves you with nothing mister but
Boring stories of..."
"Christopher" it said, "you pulled that carpet up months ago when the cardio room flooded. It was pulled up by your hand looking for the very drain that needs capped off now."
All of this took place in a matter of seconds. I went from furious to laughing at my insecurities in less time it takes to read this sentence.
We often do not give ourselves credit for what we have, what we do, or what we have done. We have to quantify and qualify our successes against others. Do we trust ourselves so very little that we ignore the highlights of our own lives? I am in better shape than I was in my twenties. I am in less pain than ever before. I am lifting with the knowledge of mechanics and growth that I never had before. But in just and instant I find myself having to remind myself of what I advise all my clients to do. Avoid the comparisons to others. Motivate yourself. Do the Best you can and be able to look in the mirror and like what you see. Because chances are you have doing a lot more than you could have done in those glory days you remember so fondly.
"Glory days well they'll pass you by
Glory days in the wink of a young girl's eye
Glory days, glory days" -Springsteen B.